I just met a man who offered to teach me Farsi. When he asked why I want to learn the language I said, "because my brother knew it".
What I didn't tell him is that I want to know how to speak in a language you knew, maybe say what you said. I'm still trying to figure out why you died and this won't do the trick, but it may help me feel closer to you.
Because now that you are gone I feel less and less 'close to you'.
It just doesn't feel like the holidays. I'm knitting a scarf for Dennis and I wish I could make one for you, too.